I was so nervous when I arrived at my clinic. I had to leave my place at 6am to get there by 7am. I ate a PopTart and took 3 Advil to prepare for the scratch. From all that I've read, I heard that it would hurt. My RE warned me that it will be painful, but quick. Boy, was she right!
First, the ultrasound tech did an internal sonogram to check my lining to make sure it was thin after my period. Everything looked good, so the nurse came in to perform the endometrial scratch. She told me that it would be quick but painful. I was ready.
She started talking about the success rates of embryos implanting after this procedure. I was asked if they could donate my sample to the hospital for research on women with endometriosis. The only way to diagnose endometriosis officially is by having a Laparoscopic surgery. I had to have a Laparoscopic Myomectomy to remove fibroids, and this is when they discovered the...
1.) I woke up with slight flu-like symptoms. When I say slight, I mean it really isn't bad at all. I don't know how else to describe it. My stomach feels like the small tiny flu piercing pains, but that sounds bad. Just feeling a little off. I felt pretty nauseous in the evening.
2.) I had no headache this morning, but it has creeped back slowly. It turned into a raging headache in the back of my head and neck at night. Again, no coffee, so it could be a caffeine headache. I drink coffee regularly, 2-3 cups a day. I also drink a lot of Pepsi, gross. Anyways, I've cut them out of my diet cold turkey. I've tried this before and my headaches were intense. This is why I think it's a combination of both the Lupron and caffeine withdrawal....
After having to cancel 3 FET transfers, my doctor thought it would be best to try a 1 month round of Lupron. Every time I started the vaginal Estradiol estrogen pills, plus 3 patches of estrogen every other day, I would get my raging period within 2 weeks. My uterine lining would not thicken and I would start bleeding intensely. We decided I would not be able to continue with this protocol. After an internal sonogram, my doctor was seeing a small growth on the outside of my uterus. She is worried it is yet another fibroid getting in the way. Fuuuuck.
Look, waiting a month or two or three is no big deal in the grand scheme of things, but damn, I've waited a really really really long time to have a baby. Also, I am just so fucking exhausted. All The Time. Why did my lining grow so beautifully for my first FET transfer with only the vaginal estrogen pills? Well, I can't control what's happening, s...
A couple of weeks after my miscarriage, my RE wanted to have an MRI done on my uterus. I had a really heavy period the month after, and she wanted to see if there was another cause for the miscarriage. The MRI was really strange. I didn't feel claustrophobic like I thought I would, but the machine was SO LOUD and I was cold. When they had to inject the dye in, I could taste it in my mouth and it was terrible!
After about a week, my RE called and gave me the news that I had two large fibroids that were pushing into my uterus from the outside. She thinks this was the cause of my miscarriage and heavy bleeding after. I was told that a lot of women have fibroids and are fine during pregnancy, but it was the location of these that she was concerned with. The plan was to have surgery to remove the fibroids in a couple of months after being on birth control.
Here I am, starting this blog on our 12th wedding anniversary. I'm 34 years old. We didn't seek out IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) until last year. I'd like to share my experiences with IVF and FETs (Frozen Embryo Transfer).
I would search for hours and hours typing questions in Google in hopes of finding someone else who is going through something similar. I feel comfort in reading other stories. Some are happy, some sad, but it's good to read them all. I know this will be tough for me, seeing as I can hardly talk to anyone about this all. Hopefully, writing this blog will be therapeutic and help some others in the process.
Where do I begin? I never thought that I would have trouble with fertility. Hence, the name of my blog: IVF? WTF! You don't dream of needles and meds, surgeries and pain, and waiting...lots and lots of waiting, to have a baby.