What an interesting twister of emotions. We went into our WTF appointment (Where you can read about what our newest protocol is) thinking we probably wouldn't try again for a while, to wanting to try again in the next couple of months. My RE seemed so positive and uplifting. We are so lucky to have found her.
The second we left, we talked about if we should tell anyone or not. The answer was NO. We were not going to tell ANYONE. We want the chance to have a secret pregnancy like every other human who can conceive naturally.
Well, I received my newest FET protocol a few days ago. It's so so hard. I go between being excited and being terrified. Doesn't this baby deserve the same amount of excited feelings as our first try? It has so work this time. IT HAS TO!
So, I received the e-mail on Friday at 2:30pm on October 6th. I opened up the document and the first thing I noticed...
I was instructed to stay in bed for 3 days. I was so cozy and comfortable in our room. I watched a lot of TV and read a lot. On the 3rd day I felt INTENSE cramping. I was moaning and breathing heavily. I thought for sure I was about to get my period. It hurt so bad I had to get the heating pad. I labored through the cramping for a good hour, and then it stopped. I put a pad on and waited for my period to come. It never did.
I went back to work on Monday and I felt different. Like super zen. Nothing was stressing me out like usual. I didn't care. I felt good. I felt light and tingly. Every day after work I would go home and I just HAD TO sleep. I would nap until my husband came home. I was also SUPER hungry. I needed to eat a snack every couple of hours. (I've been super hungry with all of my meds, but this was just different. More intense.)