*I'm writing this 8 months after my daughter was born.
Postpartum Depression. It happened. Is this a nightmare? How could this be? I've waited for over 10 years for my sweet baby!
I had this MENTAL MISFIRE. I couldn't function. Everything was a blur. I cried and cried for no reason. Here I was, FINALLY I had my dream baby, but I also just could not get myself together. I knew when my husband asked if I was OK one day, that I wasn't.
We had our 6 week followup with my OB. I had to fill out one of those questionnaire forms where you circle how you are really feeling. I was scared. I thought I would be judged.
My OB was AMAZING. She gave us a scenario of what it was like for the husband and new momma and we just had to laugh because she was SPOT ON. Like she had watched our exact moments the day before.
In the moment, I didn't know why I was so upset all of the time. Looking back, HELLO!
Well, it finally happened! We are pregnant! I've been trying to plan for my blog posts to align with when I am telling everyone. Some of my Twitter followers already know this news, but I didn't want to share with everyone until we had that 12 week scan.
Once again, we wanted to have our moment to show a sonogram to tell family and friends.
We are SO EXCITED
We are SO SCARED
We are SO CAUTIOUS
Here's how it all went down:
After the transfer I was worried, because I didn't feel any different until the 2nd week. I wasn't starving, but I was SUPER DUPER EXHAUSTED. I chalked the exhaustion up to being the school play's director and we had been having longer rehearsals and the show was quickly approaching.
I felt TONS of cramping (and still do). I definitely thought I was getting my period and kept checking every time I went to the bathroom. My mind was...
I can't believe I forgot to write a post about my Jury Duty summons! I think I mentioned it, but didn't go into detail. This all went down when trying for a FET in the summer. Back when every time I filled my body with hormones, I'd get my raging period.
I was panicked. It couldn't be. I could not even imagine having to sit in a court room when all I could think about was whether we would ever have a baby. When all I wanted to do was cry all day. I did not realize that I could defer my duty with a doctor's note, so I waited and waited for the day to come. My number was in the 400s, so I thought there was no way I would be called in. Well, they called EVERYONE who was summoned.
I got to the court house super early and got in line outside. By this time I was thinking of all of the possible court cases/lengths of time I'...