After the 5 week scare, we felt relieved that our babies were still in there. I can't bring myself to calm down about it, though. I know that a miscarriage can happen at any time. I don't think I'll ever feel at ease with this pregnancy.
The bleeding continued throughout the whole week after our 5 week scan. It was enough that I needed a pad, but it wasn't heavy. It wasn't just spotting, either.
I was so nervous. It was time to see our babies. The sonographer was excellent. Right away we could clearly see TWO BEATING HEARTBEATS! WOW! WOW! WOW!
I've never seen anything like it! I've never felt this way before. So extremely happy and giddy! OUR BABIES ARE OK! They are SO SO CUTE. Like SUPER CUTE.
Baby "A" heartbeat was 108. Baby "B" heartbeat was 128.
I was concerned about the heartbeat difference, but she said t...
I woke up on Monday morning at 4am with blood on the sheets. I ran to the bathroom and started bawling my eyes out. This is EXACTLY when and how the previous miscarriage started. I was beside myself. I woke my husband up and he tried to calm me, but I could see how terrified he was, too. I emailed my RE right away. She e-mailed me back by 7am and had us in for a scan by 9am.
The ride to the clinic was mostly silent. I looked like a mess. I didn't even brush my teeth.
The first thing the sonographer said to me was that it's very hard to see anything at just 5 weeks. I was TINY pregnant. My heart stopped. I didn't want to look.
Then there THEY were. TWO sacs! TWO babies! They could clearly see two sacs and t...
After having to cancel 3 FET transfers, my doctor thought it would be best to try a 1 month round of Lupron. Every time I started the vaginal Estradiol estrogen pills, plus 3 patches of estrogen every other day, I would get my raging period within 2 weeks. My uterine lining would not thicken and I would start bleeding intensely. We decided I would not be able to continue with this protocol. After an internal sonogram, my doctor was seeing a small growth on the outside of my uterus. She is worried it is yet another fibroid getting in the way. Fuuuuck.
Look, waiting a month or two or three is no big deal in the grand scheme of things, but damn, I've waited a really really really long time to have a baby. Also, I am just so fucking exhausted. All The Time. Why did my lining grow so beautifully for my first FET transfer with only the vaginal estrogen pills? Well, I can't control what's happening, s...