I was so nervous when I arrived at my clinic. I had to leave my place at 6am to get there by 7am. I ate a PopTart and took 3 Advil to prepare for the scratch. From all that I've read, I heard that it would hurt. My RE warned me that it will be painful, but quick. Boy, was she right!
First, the ultrasound tech did an internal sonogram to check my lining to make sure it was thin after my period. Everything looked good, so the nurse came in to perform the endometrial scratch. She told me that it would be quick but painful. I was ready.
She started talking about the success rates of embryos implanting after this procedure. I was asked if they could donate my sample to the hospital for research on women with endometriosis. The only way to diagnose endometriosis officially is by having a Laparoscopic surgery. I had to have a Laparoscopic Myomectomy to remove fibroids, and this is when they discovered the...
What an interesting twister of emotions. We went into our WTF appointment (Where you can read about what our newest protocol is) thinking we probably wouldn't try again for a while, to wanting to try again in the next couple of months. My RE seemed so positive and uplifting. We are so lucky to have found her.
The second we left, we talked about if we should tell anyone or not. The answer was NO. We were not going to tell ANYONE. We want the chance to have a secret pregnancy like every other human who can conceive naturally.
Well, I received my newest FET protocol a few days ago. It's so so hard. I go between being excited and being terrified. Doesn't this baby deserve the same amount of excited feelings as our first try? It has so work this time. IT HAS TO!
So, I received the e-mail on Friday at 2:30pm on October 6th. I opened up the document and the first thing I noticed...
I've heard this online, but never really looked it up. The WTF appointment is just what is sounds like: What the fuck happened? Why didn't the transfer work? What did I do wrong? What's next? We now found ourselves having to schedule it. Luckily, we didn't have to wait very long, just a few weeks.
Hubby and I had quite a few discussions on where to go from here. Do we take a break? Do we try again right away? How will we afford another transfer? What else could they do differently to make this successful? Should we accept being childless?
We went in feeling lost, heartbroken, and exhausted. My RE came in and was so sweet. She was shocked that the transfer didn't work. We tried Lupron, and thought that would do the trick. All she could tell us was that sometimes, it just doesn't take.
She had a new plan that sounds hopeful. She was not pushy, just told us that if and...