Well, it finally happened! We are pregnant! I've been trying to plan for my blog posts to align with when I am telling everyone. Some of my Twitter followers already know this news, but I didn't want to share with everyone until we had that 12 week scan.
Once again, we wanted to have our moment to show a sonogram to tell family and friends.
We are SO EXCITED
We are SO SCARED
We are SO CAUTIOUS
Here's how it all went down:
After the transfer I was worried, because I didn't feel any different until the 2nd week. I wasn't starving, but I was SUPER DUPER EXHAUSTED. I chalked the exhaustion up to being the school play's director and we had been having longer rehearsals and the show was quickly approaching.
I felt TONS of cramping (and still do). I definitely thought I was getting my period and kept checking every time I went to the bathroom. My mind was...
I've heard this online, but never really looked it up. The WTF appointment is just what is sounds like: What the fuck happened? Why didn't the transfer work? What did I do wrong? What's next? We now found ourselves having to schedule it. Luckily, we didn't have to wait very long, just a few weeks.
Hubby and I had quite a few discussions on where to go from here. Do we take a break? Do we try again right away? How will we afford another transfer? What else could they do differently to make this successful? Should we accept being childless?
We went in feeling lost, heartbroken, and exhausted. My RE came in and was so sweet. She was shocked that the transfer didn't work. We tried Lupron, and thought that would do the trick. All she could tell us was that sometimes, it just doesn't take.
She had a new plan that sounds hopeful. She was not pushy, just told us that if and...
After having to cancel 3 FET transfers, my doctor thought it would be best to try a 1 month round of Lupron. Every time I started the vaginal Estradiol estrogen pills, plus 3 patches of estrogen every other day, I would get my raging period within 2 weeks. My uterine lining would not thicken and I would start bleeding intensely. We decided I would not be able to continue with this protocol. After an internal sonogram, my doctor was seeing a small growth on the outside of my uterus. She is worried it is yet another fibroid getting in the way. Fuuuuck.
Look, waiting a month or two or three is no big deal in the grand scheme of things, but damn, I've waited a really really really long time to have a baby. Also, I am just so fucking exhausted. All The Time. Why did my lining grow so beautifully for my first FET transfer with only the vaginal estrogen pills? Well, I can't control what's happening, s...