After the 5 week scare, we felt relieved that our babies were still in there. I can't bring myself to calm down about it, though. I know that a miscarriage can happen at any time. I don't think I'll ever feel at ease with this pregnancy.
The bleeding continued throughout the whole week after our 5 week scan. It was enough that I needed a pad, but it wasn't heavy. It wasn't just spotting, either.
I was so nervous. It was time to see our babies. The sonographer was excellent. Right away we could clearly see TWO BEATING HEARTBEATS! WOW! WOW! WOW!
I've never seen anything like it! I've never felt this way before. So extremely happy and giddy! OUR BABIES ARE OK! They are SO SO CUTE. Like SUPER CUTE.
Baby "A" heartbeat was 108. Baby "B" heartbeat was 128.
I was concerned about the heartbeat difference, but she said t...
I woke up on Monday morning at 4am with blood on the sheets. I ran to the bathroom and started bawling my eyes out. This is EXACTLY when and how the previous miscarriage started. I was beside myself. I woke my husband up and he tried to calm me, but I could see how terrified he was, too. I emailed my RE right away. She e-mailed me back by 7am and had us in for a scan by 9am.
The ride to the clinic was mostly silent. I looked like a mess. I didn't even brush my teeth.
The first thing the sonographer said to me was that it's very hard to see anything at just 5 weeks. I was TINY pregnant. My heart stopped. I didn't want to look.
Then there THEY were. TWO sacs! TWO babies! They could clearly see two sacs and t...
3rd time's a charm, right? We are hoping for our RAINBOW baby! For those of you who are not familiar with the term, a rainbow baby is a baby that is born after a miscarriage. The rainbow signifies hope around the world for those who have suffered a loss.
We went in excited, nervous, and terrified on Thursday afternoon. I tried to stay as calm as possible before going in.
Our nurse came out and I was SO GLAD it wasn't the same weird woman that we had the last time. We were so happy. She was SO SWEET and SO FUNNY!
There were a few differences this time:
1.) We were led into a different room than the last two times.
2.) My husband had to wear a huge white paper gown and blue hair net. This was so much fun and had us laughing so hard! He was loving it!
3.) I had to wear a gown and hairnet this time. I hate the way I look in it.
4.) The Valium kicked in super fast and I was calm and giggly.
I was so nervous when I arrived at my clinic. I had to leave my place at 6am to get there by 7am. I ate a PopTart and took 3 Advil to prepare for the scratch. From all that I've read, I heard that it would hurt. My RE warned me that it will be painful, but quick. Boy, was she right!
First, the ultrasound tech did an internal sonogram to check my lining to make sure it was thin after my period. Everything looked good, so the nurse came in to perform the endometrial scratch. She told me that it would be quick but painful. I was ready.
She started talking about the success rates of embryos implanting after this procedure. I was asked if they could donate my sample to the hospital for research on women with endometriosis. The only way to diagnose endometriosis officially is by having a Laparoscopic surgery. I had to have a Laparoscopic Myomectomy to remove fibroids, and this is when they discovered the...
After the egg collection, I was woozy for a bit and I was ready to get home. I got dressed and the nurse wheeled me down to the car. I was told to drink TONS of Gatorade and to eat a lot of protein and salt. They said I shouldn't only drink water because I needed a lot of electrolytes. I thought that sounded so weird. First of all, I HATE GATORADE. I MEAN I HATE IT. I never ever ever ever want to even look at it ever again. I hated it before this whole ordeal, and I have a strong anger towards it after.
I was starving after the collection, so we went and got chicken and french fries to bring home.
My husband is the BEST. He had set up our guest bedroom for my recovery room. It was so calming with the twinkle lights up. He brought me everything I could need within reaching distance. All charging cords, saltines, Gatorade grrrrr, my phone and my iPad. I ate my food...