Every single time I wipe,
I have to look.
I am terrified to find blood,
I am terrified to lose this baby.
I started writing this months ago,
Nothing has changed.
I'm 32 weeks pregnant,
I still look every single time.
We have a healthy singleton,
But think about the twin we lost
Even though I feel my baby,
kicking and tumbling like crazy.
I still check.
Miscarriages fucked me up,
I love this baby.